The Story of My Story…………Part III....The End

Sometimes the fear of failure is much more than the actual failure.Dreams are the same. They are much more beautiful in the thoughts rather in reality when they actually come true…..

My apologies for dragging this story for so long ………

Vijesh and Shruti’s relationship has reached to the breaking point. Now journey has no diversions but enroute to a reality. A reality which is not so obvious but made them to part there ways……
Shruti remains firm on her decision to continue her work, Vijesh could not digest the reality and they both decide to find out there own ways to lead there life……

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Location: Sunset point After 30 years……they cross each other in the same place where they had met for the first time.Sunset point was the place for Shruti and Vijesh to start there journey………journey of there lifelong companionship


Vijesh- (Around 65years……hands shivering as usual……this time because of his age)
Shruti- (she has touched 60…still that smile hasn’t lost in those eyes)

Both stares at each other for a minute, somehow bounce backs to Past.. To recall those memories..its alomst 30 years

Last conversation of story………Sunset point……evening……same park bench…

Shruti: hiiiii(took some time to recognize him, bcaz of her week eye sighti)
Vijesh: hello (somehow fail to react)
Shruti: (observing him carefully)
Vijesh: you………Shurti !!
Shruti: yes…
Vijesh: how come you here?
Shruti: My son has got new flat close to this place…So…
Vijesh: okok…can we seat for a moment…
Shruti: (Looks into his eyes…observes his thick glasses)…ohh yes..sure
Vijesh: (observes her white hairs)……so how is life??
Shruti: Not so great……life is going…. (She starts unfolding her past of 30years)
My husband expired few years back….children’s are very busy with there life…this asthma just doesn’t leave me…(all of a sudden she starts feeling cold)
Vijesh: fumbles for a while…ohhh... you forgot your jacket..still you haven’t changed….. What dose it take to carry your jacket when you step Outside? I know, you wont change……somehow could not stop himself going back to there old days when he use scold her for forgetting her jacket… (vijesh silently lay his jacket on her)
Shruti: hmmmmm, Life was very occupied with husband and children’s….just could not got time for myself…I was running after some endless dreams…
It wasn’t that I expected when I left you…..i wanted to chase my dreams…but I couldn’t realize the moments and forgot the people to carry along…its not about the dreams…its about the journey to accomplished those dreams…things have changed so much!!!
Vijesh: hmmm..(Listening to her and observing her specs.. missing her smile)
Shruti: so what about you……..how is your wife and childrens?? Your childrens must have settled now, right?
Vijesh: fumbles…well………things were not that great…can we talk something more pleasant..lets drop it..
Shruti: No… answer me
Vijesh: why these questions are so important to answer??cant we just move…(He desperately wanted to avoid this question)
Shruti: No…we can’t!!
Vijesh: (short of words)
Shruti: (still waiting for his answer)
Vijesh: hmmm….I tried to move along with life after you left me…Things changed certainly..but I dint found someone with whom I could make a new start..i realized the importance of our relationship..it was so deep stuck in me..i just could not throw it…..i decided to lead my life alone…jouney was tough, but I could not see anyone else taking your place…..i learn something from life……a lesson for a life time…
Shruti: but how come you lived alone for so many years??? (Could not digest his answer)
VIjesh: (remains calm and laughs)…Shruti, you remember? Thirty years back when I proposed you on this park bench…..In the presence of Sun falling to the sky…(he always forgets his line)
Shruti: It’s not Sun falling to the sky. Its Sun falling from the sky!(correcting him patiently)
Vijesh: Yeahh..In the presence of sun falling from the sky…..in the response, you said “I like you so much”…i kept those words with me on this journey….i lived with those words
Shrut : (eyes completely filled with tears)…looking into his eyes…
Vijesh: (short of words)…

Both looks at each other…Vijesh couldn’t say anything after this..Shruti understands his unspoken words……

The End………

It could be a completely impractical story… As I reiterate, I described it the way I imagined ….i was touched and moved…
There are few words meant to be out of dictionary, we don’t refer dictionary for those.. Similarly there are few stories, which are meant to be unconventional…not so obvious…it could have happened in someone’s life or it may happen, though its not so pleasant…But that’s life……And “Life is Beautifool”…Trust me…

The Story of My Story…………Part II

Just a thought to pass!!
I came up with this thought in casino, When my friend was explaining me the Rules of Gambling.Finally I could able to understand only one thing. i.e Heart of Gambling is a game of probability..

What about life?
I believe “Life is the only Gamble where probability doesn’t work”

Having said will take on with Vijesh and Shruti how they lead there life.
Journey has been started for Shruti and Vijesh.They started finding whole world into each others eyes. Now two hearts speaks only one language of love
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Location: Garden....Bench..A Sunset point
Sun falling from the sky:)

Both are shivering under cold wave as they sat in the minimum temperature plunging below 10 degree Celsius.Its a winter time

Vijesh : its goin to be 5 degree today! I just heard on the news(Vijesh hands shivering, this time because of cold)
Shruti : YEahh.. I am feeling very cold out here.
Vijesh : observes her.. ohhh...Again you forgot your jacket today. Aaahhh, What dose it take to carry your jacket when you step Outside? I know, you wont change (vijesh silently lay his jacket on her)
Shruti : (Only smile…No words..In her thoughts)
VIjesh : what happened?? why are you so silent?
Shruti: hmmmm.. You remember for the first time when you told me your feelings, and till date We went through so many ups and downs..so many fights..so many confusions..
Vijesh: With So much of love…
Shruti: hmmmm!!Chukles!!(laying on his shoulders..Need to tell you one thing
Vijesh: yess?? (tensed………)
Shurti: You are not as dumb as you look!!! hahahhahah
Vijesh: can I say something?
Vijesh: did I ever told you how beautiful your are??
Shruti: yesss!! 5 times everyday, 8 times on Sunset point, and 10 times when I wear that blue top, your favourate
Vijesh: sorry (sighh..)
Shruti: hmmm!! Not that I am tired of hearing it!!! I wont stop you!! if you wish too( girls want to hear it till eternity..all the time)
Vijesh: okai, you know I love you more than anything else in this world. I feel like I am a reserved guy ( he always screws up the romantic moments with his very own dumb statements)
Shurti: Whatttttt???
Vijesh: I mean I feel like reserved only for you!!!
Shruti: ohhhh!!Sigh of relief..giggles

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Shruti enters into the new life with Vijesh. Holding the smile with bit of a fear and the ecstasy. Pretty princess gets together with a perfect prince charming for life long companionship,Perfect in his own world.

Well the conversation changes after marriage. Not drastically, but on the different routes.
Vijesh is a charted accountant by profession, always busy with crunching numbers behind his never ending targets.
Shruti occupied in her even management workshops. Both enjoying there professional life and Personal life becomes a question mark. They hardly could able to take out time to spend evening at Sunset Point.Gone are the time!!
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Location: Sweat Home
Though there personal conversation won’t remain so pleasant ..

Vijesh : Stop calling that Rama aunty to my house!! I mean..our house..
Shruti: I dint call her, she likes to visit our place!!
Vijesh: Have you observed her yesterday? The way she was staring at me while I was having my dinner!
Shruti: Yes, I do!!
Vijesh:urrrrrr!!!
Shruti: why can’t you eat bit more gracefully in front of others?
Vijesh: why should i????? It’s my house!!
Shruti: But what it will take if you eat appropriately, the way you eat that rice n curry makes me;
Vijesh: What’s wrong with eating rice n curry? I will dig a hole in rice and pour curry and swim inside at my own will!! What’s the problem for that fatty aunty? Its none of her bloody business.
Shruti: okai; Let’s drop it!!
Vijesh: I hate your people, Especially that Rama aunty..always makes me uncomfortable.
Shruti: you exaggerating. don’t create a seen. Have you ever checked on your uncle?? He always try to eye ball the neighbors usha. He keeps puking some nonsense stuff about me to your family.
Vijesh: stop it shruti..
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Devaaaa.. How irritating is that? Huhhh. Let me reconfirm you, we are still on the page of “shruti and vijesh” Story..
Differences started doubling and no good moments to divide them. Sometimes these small differences make the relations stronger or it may lead to create the air gap.

The relationship curve was going down drastically.They could not spend much time because of there busy work schedule. Finally Vijesh asked Shruti to leave her job. Shruti had never expected this from him; she gets disappointed but remains firm on her decision. She refuses his request.

Vijesh and Shruti’s relationship reached to the breaking point. Now journey has no diversions but enroute to a reality.
We will discover the end of this story in the next Part.I assure the next part will be end of the journey, Please bear with Me:)

The Story of My Story…………Part I

I would love to reproduce this story given a opportunity .I don’t have any answers which will raise during this reading. Well even I could not able to find out answers for them.In true sense I was touched and moved by this story of mine. Not so inspiring, still I need to share. Though it’s so traditional. That’s what I am.

I always wonder why we always need to describe what is Life or Love. I will keep these words untouched. I feel there are few words, which are meant to be out of dictionary. We don’t need to dig into the dictionary for it. It reveals with our own experiences, that’s how makes it more real .I dreamt about this story. long back!!

This could be a foolish romantic dream or must be a real time story happened in some ones life. Well i am giving a shot to make it real. What’s harm?

I was thinking of what names should I give two these characters.Here we go This is the story I see it, though I don’t live it.
This is the story about beautiful girl. Damn why always girls have to be beautiful?? No, but I can’t carve my story without a beautiful girl. let it be:)
Well it’s like Cricket, every time batsman takes away all the credit and charm. Same like in stories, always girl takes away the charm and sympathy. I have something else for my story. will unfold it soon.:))

Shruti, Bourn with a smile. Not so trendy but still modern .A fear less soul. Very practical, like today’s girls, she likes to learn more about people. Some how she always believes in knowing people more than a place. Always want to do something different.

Vijesh, Its very simple to describe his character. If you happen to see a guy with glasses and very stud looks, that’s a hero of my story, not so proper proper. In simple words a dumb soul. He is the real stud who thinks from his heart, very unconventional.

Vijesh use to lost himself in deep thoughts like why the hell these laughter clubs exist , and what make people laugh for hours. He really wouldn’t mind to spoil his Sunday morning to think on any garbage like that. Well I won’t list it since I don’t want you people drop reading further.

I have decided to meet them up in the garden. Well that tells again how traditional I am.even my story can’t run away with it.

Accidentally or incidentally Vijesh meets my astonishing girl in the park. She used to come there to take a peace walk and get some fresh air. Vijesh was the only member in elder’s laughter club. Curiosity kills sometimes. Vijesh joins laughter club to get the answer for his equally dumb curiosity.

They often used to cross each other every day. He used to always avoid her because of her beauty, and this girl used to always eye on him because of his dumbness. well some times girls do get impressed with the dumb personalities:)
One fine day, she happens to talk to him. Can anyone believe that laughter club could be the reason to be a start of new journey for two people
Shruti was always wanted to know more about people. So her curiosity takes her to meet up these so called laughter club "Young guns laughter association"

Vijesh is very different than his looks, live in his present but love to go back to good memories of past to cherish upon. He is an emotional fool…fool because of his foolish dreams, and his dreams are always unspoken.

Well I have described Vijesh I leave up to you...how u see it
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Location: Garden....Bench…..A Sunset point
Here we go..Shruti and Vijesh…A very first meeting on the park bench…

Vijesh: coughing, endlessly..
(Short of words…as always …shivering his hands n legs…both at the same moment…my hero has some problem with beautiful girls around)

Shruti: Sorry ,I forgot your name??
Vijesh: vvijeshh…
Shruti: ohh!!! Right, I heard you introducing yourself in the last laughter club meeting.
Vijesh: Ohhh you remember that ??? (Some how legs stopped shivering)
Shruti: Yeah I did!! you were so nice to the senior members of the club! They are so happy seeing you around!
Vijesh: ohh;Ya! Ya! (now hands stops shivering…my hero is in total control…)
Vijesh: So what kind of study you want to do on laughter’s club.
Shruti: ohh!!! No, No, I am not here to study anything. I just want to be part of this space. It’s my curiosity of meeting people drives me here.
Vijesh: curiosity !! People !! hmmm…interesting…
Vijesh: but why??
Shruti: I like meeting people…..reading them…to see passion behind there happiness
Vijesh: hmmm???
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I wont go much into these clueless conversations because my hero would not understand the space issues of this blog site. I will cut it off shortly…
Every Sunday morning Shruti use to meet Vijesh. They started knowing each other. Shruti realized that how dumb he is. She also realized the person behind his strange personality and she actually started seeing those glimpse behind his glasses, She actually started knowing his unspoken words.
Smart girl falls for his simplicity and trueness.

The D –Day comes!! My hero decides to propose Shruti.
There is something I want to share. Girls always gives signals to guys.very smart guys understands those signals. But as I reiterate, my hero is a dumb soul. he even can catch those satellite signals easily but it’s a very tough possibility when it comes to girls. Shruti gave him indirect signals couple of times, But ..what say..god bless u Vijesh.

As he makes his mind to propose her. He comes up with a script also, well his script has only one sentence! The interesting thing was, there love cherished in the presence of the Sunset which they use to see together as sun falling from the sky, The sea soft and warm rolling, glittering golden red orange (god knows how they could see all the colors melting in the see).He wanted to propose her in the presence of those very moments which they shared in the past and that’s how there journey started.
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Vijesh[with his white checks shirt. Though still not proper proper As usual hands n legs started shivering…]
Shruti[relax and calm as always]

Vijesh: In the presence of this sun falling to the sky……urrrrrrrr (damn.. he could not mugged one sentence also)
Shruti: It’s not Sun falling to the sky. Its Sun falling from the sky!(correcting him patiently)
Vijesh: ohhhh!!yeahh!!! In the presence of this Sun ,falling from the sky.I want to ..I…want…to….
Shruti:hammmmm( heart is beating higher)
Vijesh: I ..want …to say….(takes out his Glasses….his heart will burst any moment)
Vijesh: I love you!!! (bang….sometimes my hero really acts like hero..huhh )
Shruti: giggling……nodding……
Shruti: ”I like you very much” (A typical traditional girl... after some nodding and giggling)
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Hureeyyyyy..journey has began in the presence of sun falling to the...(grrrrrrrrrr not again!)..i am sorry.. sun falling from the sky. It’s going to head some where. This Is a start of journey…heading to the space which I am trying to create. I will continue this journey in next blog

I don’t know how much justice I can give to my story when I put it in words. But I want to create a space to make this journey more pleasant.

Beyond memories..........looking for myself

So many emotions rolled into one small thing named life...we carry it all over..having said me still in search of myself...my own identity...sumtimes i lost myself goin to places n back to those memories..but this journy keeps goin..

its like, Standing on a beach and watching the waves roll in and break, one might guess that water is moving bodily towards the shore…sometimes feel like u making an strange connection to those waves…n back to those memories...

Journey...enroute to our lives

Me After a long break...m back here....with my words...well they were unspoken these days…sometimes me too get lost in those..

my life is became like banjara..leading one place to another..carrying the mix feelings to cherish...this journey leading to the different experiences of life..Somtimes gives me lots of time with myself...with my own life..

You can`t be objective when the subject is your own life...so these experiences becomes integral part of your lives..my words do more justice than what i want to say..

so better my words would do the justice..its about the journy n its about life..
well this journey started with some expectations to learn more about life, the people... n landed with nothing but sweet memory lane....
Somwhow this is one of my favourite..close to my heart..tried to make it simple..i hope you like it..



The route the journy takes enroute to new life evokes something inexplicable!!

Lets Be Friends....

Wish u all beautifool ( oops…m sorry beautiful) people…my sweet friends…a happy friendship day…




Life should be lived to the fullest…well these phrases doesn’t make much of a sense when you try to be realistic…

Damn,how much u care for for your real friends…well m asking myself…Even m not sure how true I am with them at this very moment…it may vary with different circumstances…may be we found very few people around us to be talked upon or share something……

but few things to make sure your friends know that they are important too. I cant imagine myself driving my life without friends…never
These special treasures make you feel secured…Though intellectually we are very sophisticated, yet our daily life is such a grind, without any meaning...but for a moment we cant think of without friends…

friends sitting in the park on a lovely day, talking about life, talking about there problems, investigating the very nature of there existence and asking themselves n answering with each others support…its nothing impossible without friends…but it is something which drives you to carry on lives crossroads…

once again happy friendship day:)))

Marriage.....Bride.........New journey

Marriage is not kid’s play. But all kids grow up playing the same game. Pretty princess searched for a perfect prince charming for life long companionship…….

All marriages are written in heven..what say…

It does take lot of courage to face it…….man u gonna tide up with one girl/guy for rest of your lives…..
It pops up thousand questions. …What if she doesn’t like chicken?? Well its to personal for me (devaa when m I goin to think beyond chicken)…huhh
Lets not stretched it nymore………..

Me attended my friends (Anita) marriage in kerla…its her native…it’s a typical south Indian marriage with lots of simplicity…



Well this bride carrying the mix feelings…entering to the new life with her companion…holding the smile with bit of a fear n the ecstasy…

i believe beauty lies in simplicity…what say!!

I wish both of them good luck to trace their dreams n strength to withstand ups n downs throughout this journey…named life….